You're Being Lied To pt 6: I Have No Purpose

Hey Warrior...

Purpose is defined as the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used, etc. Let me ask you... Why are you here? Why are you walking the face of the earth? I admit, that may be a big question. It was for me. It still is sometimes.

Back in roughly 2012, someone asked me this question: What would you do if you could do anything in this world, and money wasn't a problem and failure isn't possible? Backstory: That was a very "questionable" time in my life, yet, I immediately knew the answer. It was simple, with not much thought, and absolutely zero details, yet, it was a direction. It was something. My answer was simply "something for military..." In hindsight, I believe that day was a turning point in my life.

In that season, I didn't believe in myself at all, and I felt as if there was not one single living soul who believed in me either. I was doing a job I enjoyed and was gifted at. Seemed to have it together on the outside, but on the inside, complete chaos and misery. Life had happened, and I was spinning.

What's crazy to look at is the absolute fact that deep down, there was something I loved. Yet, I had no clue how to get there, and no courage to even try. That was the lie I was listening to. Yet, one question was the spark needed to silence the lies. Here are a few truths I found...

1. I found that someone (the person asking) saw something in me I didnt, and believed in me.
2. I found that the spark that his question ignited in me created a sense of hope deep down inside of me.
3. I realized that I was the one who was to blame for pouring water on the fire up until this point...and I had to stop.
4. I found that I did have purpose, and it was always kind of just there, and my everyday life and the crap that was happening in it was really preparing me for that purpose (and still is).
5. I found that I needed to make some decisions if I wanted to live in that purpose (I changed jobs, I started creating boundaries, I had to get help mentally, I needed to talk to the right people, etc.)
6. I found that the right people were there around me already, and that I had been letting the wrong people's voices overwhelm the voices of the right people.
7. I learned that if I wanted something different in life, I had to get out of my own way, and put the lies in their place, and begin filling it with truth.
8. And finally, I realized that even though I had no clue what I was going to do next, I had purpose, and even though it didn't look in any way sane, it was there. I just had to acknowledge it, and begin to press into it.

JOURNAL: Hit the "Take a Note" button on this page and write out your thoughts and use these questions as a guide.

+ What do I feel after reading this?
+ What can I do about it?